I’m getting older and I’m not enjoying it as much as I thought I would.
I don’t enjoy the aches and pains.
I don’t enjoy watching, from 800 miles away, my parents, now in their 80’s dealing with very significant health issues.
I don’t enjoy looking back at some of the bad decisions of my life and wonder why I didn’t know better?
I don’t enjoy pondering if I’ve lost the business edge that I always had and sometimes wonder if I ever really had it?
After dealing with death on a daily basis, both during my funeral home career and my “32-year hobby” in emergency services, I am finally realizing that I will not live forever.
A bit of eschatological urgency for a guy who has hung out in the valley of the shadow of death for 38 years. It has finally sunk in. . . and it sucks.
People who were and/or are part of my life, some in very significant ways, are dying. One by one and piece by piece, parts of me are being torn off.
The latest installment is a man that I always used as one of the benchmarks of what a priest/clergyman should be. Msgr. Richard Behl, 75, died the day after Thanksgiving.
My relationship with Msgr. began in 1970 when, as a new priest, he was helping at Our Lady of The Mount Parish in Warren, NJ. As a newly trained, Altar Boy, I served my first Mass with him.
We stayed in contact over the years and our last e-mail exchange took place back in October as we shared ideas about a variety of topics. In reviewing the threads, I also saw that the last time we got together was exactly two years ago tonight. I was up from South Carolina and on November 29, 2014, my parents and I went out to dinner with him and we spent an evening with “our family priest.” Earlier that year, I mentioned him here, Noteworthy Event #1.
I regret that he died just a few weeks before his fifty year anniversary as a priest, which would have been December 16th.
As the asterisk get closer to my name on the back page of the program, I will continue to remember those that played important roles in my life. Believeing in the Communion of Saints, I will pray for and to them, keeping their memories eternal.
Please do the same for those who have touched your life.
BTW….does anyone understand the asterisk reference?